drifting

today felt unusual.

for one, i dressed all in black by mistake
and had leftover eyeliner on from the play.

i looked like an emo kid.

but besides that, today i felt different mentally.

more observant,
more thoughtful.

suddenly i had the aching urge to watch the clouds
and what a time to have the urge:

they were like a ballet,
drifting through the sky like a choreographed
performance.

there was a point when all of the clouds in the entire sky
seemed to be orbiting around a single splotch of blue.
there were separate rings of clouds, each a different shade
of gray
or off-white.

then one group of clouds started to move in over the blue,
as if trying to smother it
block it.

those clouds seemed almost sinister,
despite their luminescent white colouring.

but as the clouds consumed the empty sky,
they uncovered another patch farther east in the atmosphere.

the clouds tried to take over one patch of sky
and the expense of releasing another patch.

then the whole swatch of clouds
was blown westward, out of sight from my window.
and this left the entire sky clear from where i sat.

and this just hit me as something so big,
so important,
so true.

and i fully realized
three
extremely
vital
things.

one: sometimes the looks of something can betray its true intentions

two: the consequences of an action aren't always what you'd expect

and three: no matter how cloudy a situation is, there's a patch of blue somewhere out there,
waiting.

My favourite song

Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor
Just for the attention
Cause that's just ridiculous...ly odd.
Well, she sure is going to get it
Here's the setting
Fashion magazines line the walls now
The walls line the bullet holes

Have some composure
And where is your posture?
Oh, no, no!
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong

Have some composure
And where is your posture?
Oh, no, no!
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong

Give me envy, give me malice, give me your attention
Give me envy, give me malice, baby, give me a break!
When I say "Shotgun", you say "Wedding"
"Shotgun", "Wedding", "Shotgun", "Wedding"

She didn't choose this role
But she'll play it and make it sincere
So you cry, you cry
(Give me a break)
But they believe it from the tears
And the teeth right down to the blood
At her feet
Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams
(Give me a break)

Have some composure
And where is your posture?
Oh, no, no!
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong

Have some composure
And where is your posture?
Oh, no, no!
You're pulling the trigger
Pulling the trigger
All wrong

Come on this is screaming "Photo op." op...
Come on
Come on
This is screaming
This is screaming
This is screaming "Photo op."

Boys will be boys, baby
Boys will be boys
Boys will be boys, baby
Boys will be boys

Give me envy, give me malice, give me your attention
Give me envy, give me malice, baby, give me a break!
When I say "Shotgun", you say "Wedding"
"Shotgun", "Wedding", "Shotgun", "Wedding"

Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and boys will be boys
Boys will be boys
Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams

nobody likes me,
everyone hates me,
they're all out without me,
HA-VING FUN!

i just made a post
but this is on a different sort of topic.

lately i've developed a bad habit of swearing...
some of you may think, "Michael, SWEARING?"
but it's true, i have been.

and you know, the reason this habit has had time
to fester and grow,
is because swears are usually the best punctuation!

the real reason they were made swears, is because people used them
and sounded too much
like they knew what they were talking about.

so someone just decided
to keep the world in the dark from the wonder of swears.

so here's to you, swears!

*beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!*

amen

sometimes the deepest, most thought-provoking feelings

are the ones that you can't find words to express